I’m moving a lot slower these days, physically and mentally. And for the first time in my life, I’ve learned to be alright with that. Missed a lot of my own deadlines. Lost some great opportunities. Even failed a few tasks.
I can’t keep up with my friends and family like I used to. Instead of taking lead I’ve learned how to be okay with saying I need a favor. It’s been a new life for me to have to trust others to be there and I’m so thankful for the many who have been here every step of the way. God showed me while I was down just how many had been holding me up.
I haven’t and won’t ever give up on my dreams, I’m just in a season to prepare for even greater accomplishments than I had in mind. Learning how to be in ministry isn’t just about verbal ministering or sending an immediate message. It’s about administering a path only God can plan for you and take you on. Sometimes you can’t take anyone with you, other times you are assigned to people you never imagined meant for you. And often, you can’t let everyone know your direction as it tells not only your support team but also your enemies right where you will be in route for attack.
Humans have a way of getting off their destined tracks by focusing on what they want but God shows his mercy, grace, and love the most when he works to realign those who have fallen.
Rest breaks don’t mean failure or forfeiture. Sometimes God just slows us down to teach us how to be better stewards and pay closer attention to detail.
I’m thankful for this journey and lil man will have a life so much greater than our own.
I’ve taken some hard hits these past few months, and through God survived everyone of them designed to destroy me.
I want to encourage anyone out there struggling to believe if they will ever make it out the hole they feel stuck in or may have even made for themselves, that God does not break his promises.
He’s your lawyer, doctor, teacher, counselor, and employer. No paycheck, sentence, mistake, or illness can stop what God calls to move.
Stay strong and don’t give up.
The hits you take only teach you how to fight back harder next round. I already know our baby boy is gonna be a fighter just like us. It’s in his DNA. Til next time….