A Timeless Prayer

Written 10/11/10

I share this because I know im not alone.
We all stray from our beliefs throughout our lives.
It is easy to do.
But our God is a forgiving God. And we all too often take his mercy for granted. He is with you and me through all our struggles just ask for Him and He will be there.

We all have had our own crosses to bear!

I have struggled my entire life of depression and anger as many of us do.
I have lied so deep I believed what I was living to be truth, because I feared ever admitting I was just truly that ugly on the inside.
You dont have to wait to leave the streets. You dont have to wait until you are married to come to Him.
You dont have to be in good health.
You dont have to have given money or
time before.
You never want to fix it on your own first!
Pride is of the enemy!!
It is never too soon!
Jesus says, come just as you are.
Bring your pain, sorrow, jealousy, hate, denial all of it to Him!
He will reveal what is truly your purpose.

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.” Matthew 7:7

And know that the devil is rebuked in Jesus Christ’s name!!

“No weapon formed against you shall prosper, and every tongue which rises against you in judgment you shall condemn.” Isaiah 54:17

Many ignore the latter part of that scripture. It is important to know just how protected we as God’s children are! Even our fellow Christians judge us all too quickly at times and the Lord speaks against that as well! I have watched many ppl including myself leave and not return to church because of the negative connotation with the word church. (hypocrits)

“Do not judge or you too will be judged. For in the same way you judge others you will be judged, and with the measure you use it will be measured to you.” Matthew 7:2
Please brothers and sisters keep in mind how weak you were when you came to God. We do not want to lose our newborn Christian family.

Christian : one who professes belief in the teachings of Jesus Christ
We are not to condemn our brothers and sisters for any reason. I have been judged my whole life and from it God has molded me into a stronger woman and I have but one king to answer to.
I have committed many sins! I have done things I told myself I should be set in flames if I ever step back in church. Which led me further away from God.
I have flat out told God to let me be, so that I could write my poems of misery. So that I could chase men that werent for me. Drink my depression in isolation. So I could create gods out of money, drugs, and other beings. We dont realize it is idolatry the minute it comes before our God.

I certainly once loved to smoke a L on sunday mornings, now who goes to church high? Nah, I’ll just stay home today;
I have had my own family members endure abuse in ways I still wake up visualizing my past. I too have been harmed in manners I live to forget, and circumstances humanly I regret. But God delivers me from it all!
I AM NOT ALONE!
People have been through far worse. And daily people go through worse things.

It is never easy to have the ones you love be the ones that bring you down. We hide behind bling, rims, drugs, talents, women and men, and many other earthly things as if any of it could save us once we were already in sinking sand. Hmm..

In times such as these we need not spend every penny we think we have earned just to keep up with the Jones’.
If she doesnt respect you without your money then do you really think it is you she loves?
If he cant see past your beautiful eyes when you are crying is it your feelings that he appreciates?

“Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” Hebrews 13:5.

Boy, did I love taking that 2009 Acura for a spin a few days after I ungratefully WALKED out of the hospital from a head- on collision. I have been fighting to survive a $500 monthly car ppayment but, that perdy blue sure did seem worth $600/ month to feel like I’m ballin. Childish, but we all do it daily!

God’s love is the only everlasting love!

The holy spirit has really been urging me to speak to my people and I too have been more concerned with my image and conscience to stand and speak.
“but God I model, models sell sex who am I to wear Jesus Christ around my neck?”
“but God, I cuss, I fornicate, I work in a bar.. How dare I lead a horse to holy water with vodka on my own breath?”

But if God had decided to look in the mirror, sip a cosmo, and walk in the spotlight two weeks ago instead of bringing a truck to a halt I may not be here to give my praise.

If ever you feel you need not be here for others then acknowledge that same respect for yourself when you may be in need.
We all cant wait to put our favorite song, fun catchy phrases, and even breast cancer awareness posts that entertain on our status. Answer this, where do you keep your Bible?
We were put here to uplift and encourage one another! Many of us remain broken and confused of where to go. I know I have been even suicidal in my life but the Lord lifted me up. And im a fool to keep quiet any longer. God bless you all! At close, I just pray God show me how to lead his ppl to Him and not astray any longer. Yes we do have free will, but our life is a loan. We are here to live for Him. “Go forth and tell, that Jesus Christ is Lord!” Only in heaven do we have eternity. Our time is short here on earth. Thank God. In Jesus Christ I do pray, Amen.

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